Randomness

My portfolio is ready!

I'm done with designing and layouting. Now I've to do is just printing and binding. I printed out the first copy and made some minor changes and I'm almost there. I feel reliefed! Woo.. I can't imagine if I've a full time job and have to work on my portfolio after a long work day. I might never be able to get it done. Afterall, I've to admit the timing is just perfect. If might not be bad or the end of the world when things run out of your expectations or plans.

Stressed-Out

Life Resumes

I've been lazy to update this.

Anyhow, brother is coming back to Los Angeles tonight. Life is back to normal routine. Well, good or bad. And I started to feel the Fall weather.

Found it!

I’ve never feel so good in life.

Just one more month until I turn twenty-six. Quarter life has been such a marvelous year. It started off bad. I struggled for the first nine months

I’ve figured out who I’m; what I want to do and where I want to be for the rest of my life. As I mentioned earlier, I found my identity as a Chinese.

As of what I want to do, I have to say I still love architecture but I don’t think I want to be an architect.

(to be con't)

I watched the opening ceremony for the 29th Olympic on Friday night over the television. I was speechless as it hit my heart so deep.

The first Olympic ever held in China. It meant a lot for us, Chinese.

When they play the Chinese National Anthem, I couldn't hold my tears. I never thought I could be so touched while hearing the Anthem but I did. As I figured out my identity as a Chinese after twenty-five years. Yet, I still don't know how to sing the Anthem. I believe, one day, I'll remember the lyrics.

It's the Ninth

The Olympic and Beyond

It's almost August and the Beijing Olympic is coming up.

I still remember I spent a lot of time watching the Sydney Olympic eight years ago. That was when I first got to the States and school hasn't started yet. Then it was four years ago the Greece Olympic, I remember it was a touching moment watching the ending ceremony. It seems like yesterday.

Time flies. I can't believe it's been eight years. And for the first time in my life, I've such a strong feeling that I'm Chinese. To be honest, being born and grew up in the Colonial era of Hong Kong, holding a British passport and being study aboard and work in the United States for many years; I don't have a sense of belonging of Hong Kong, not to mention China.

But lately I've been reading a lot of article about Beijing, its architecture and city development. I'm thrilled to find out what the Olympic has bought to China, and yet I'm sad about the changes and disappearing of our tradition. It started to make me feel like I should do something for my country. I want to be a part of it.

It's a bit late, but not too late yet; after twenty five years, I figured out the answer. Now I just need to work towards it.

A Lot to Learn

Anyhow, this week I learnt there're still I lot I need to learn, whether it's architecture, construction or life.

A new guy started at work, he's just fresh out of school. He reminded me how fresh, how engentic, how passionate I was back in the days. I think I need to work hard on building up my confidence, but I always think other do a better job than I do. Is it because I'm a perfectionist? I only see my mistakes and how imperfect I'm. I shouldn't let this be my burden.

I still have a long way to go, a lot to learn.

Shortlisted

I'm back on track.

So my vacation request got approved, yet I decided to drop my plan to go to Virginia at the end of August. I don't feel like going mostly because of I've just realized I've a lot need to get done. Even I kind of need a break from everything, but I figured out I should focus on what's more critical.

I spent the entire Independence Day weekend resting, relaxing and clearing up my thoughts. Also, trying to figure out an narrow down the programs I'm going to apply. I've such a long list and each school/ program has slightly different requirements, such as writing samples or statement of purpose other than personal statement. I shortlisted my ideal school/ program and has a few back up ones. So now I can get started.

Whatever Happens, Happens for a Reason

My emotion is still up and down. I'm glad that I'm struggling for it because I care. If I don't care, I won't be so frustrating. From this period of time, I learnt that I love architecture even more than I thought. I realized I love architecture more than I thought. I always say I don't care or I don't want to care anymore, but deep in my heart I know how much I care about it. Even I don't want to care, I just can't help myself care too much.

I believe this's an awesome experience, it makes me tougher than ever and has more energy to move forward.

Life is amazing.